Love Love Love You all

I just feel the need to tell everyone I know and like I love you all to pieces I love my husband and kids, my parents, my friends, coworkers/friends even the one lady who held the door open for me at 7-11 yesterday I love you all

Sickness

April 24 2013
 
   The stomach bug/flu/virus what ever it is got me last week. It took a good 6 days to start to feel normal or not wanting to vomit every where. I did go to my work and saw one of the providers I work with , she hooked me up to a IV for fluids and put in some anti nausea meds and a prescription to take home with me. Casen got it Saturday night poor kid threw up in his bed then came and got into our bed. Which at about 2:30am meant I got to get a little more familiar with my couch. Sunday night I gave him half of one of my anti nausea pills it knocked him out and he sleep 14 hours which he needed. He went to school yesterday but I kept him home today due my fears of the bomb threats going around the local elementary schools. I just wanted him home safe with me. So he will go back tomorrow and hopefully all this crap has ended. Not much new going on since I was so sick last week and basically stayed in bed except for working Fri night and half day Saturday, my coworker was kind enough to let me go early and she closed alone. I just had to go home and lay down. It seems like the rest of this week is going to be crazy busy, with a lot of fun in between it all.

Good Night all have a pleasant evening.

P.S. I stopped taking my synthroid meds I think it was making me way emotional and cranky plus some other side effects I wont discuss.

Home Early

Vince came home early from his weekend trip, he wanted to surprise me but he lost his car keys so I had to go pick him up instead of the surprise, which is ok I am just glad he is back home safe, he is sun burned and has a cut on his head but home safe!!! (and he brought back some gold!!!!)

I made a Rainbow cake for the boys today (casen's favorite) washed some clothes and I actually was able to take a nap today shocking for me but it is almost 12am so I know I am Not in for a good nights sleep tonight.

Money

Hey guess what....... Jace found my $20 bill on the kitchen floor Woo Hoo!!!!!!!!!!!!

Poems and Such

Poems and such

I love to read sometimes I love to copy Lyrics or Poems down because I feel like they speak to me, make me feel better or I just love them. Here are a few

How Do I Love Thee? (Sonnet 43)

  by Elizabeth Barrett Browning

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of being and ideal grace.
I love thee to the level of every day's
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for right.
I love thee purely, as they turn from praise.
I love thee with the passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints. I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life; and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.

- See more at: http://www.poets.org/viewmedia.php/prmMID/15384#sthash.N6FFOHFx.dpuf

How Do I Love Thee? (Sonnet 43)

  by Elizabeth Barrett Browning

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of being and ideal grace.
I love thee to the level of every day's
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for right.
I love thee purely, as they turn from praise.
I love thee with the passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints. I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life; and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.

- See more at: http://www.poets.org/viewmedia.php/prmMID/15384#sthash.N6FFOHFx.dpuf

How do I love thee
by Elizabeth Barrett-Browning (1850) 

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of being and ideal grace.
I love thee to the level of every day's
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for right.
I love thee purely, as they turn from praise.
I love thee with the passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints — I love with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life! — and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death. 

The Road Not Taken

By Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,

And having perhaps the better claim,

Because it was grassy and wanted wear;

Though as for that the passing there

Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay

In leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I kept the first for another day!

Yet knowing how way leads on to way,

I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—

I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference.

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of being and ideal grace.
I love thee to the level of every day's
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for right.
I love thee purely, as they turn from praise.
I love thee with the passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints. I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life; and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.

- See more at: http://www.poets.org/viewmedia.php/prmMID/15384#sthash.N6FFOHFx.dpuf

How Do I Love Thee? (Sonnet 43)

  by Elizabeth Barrett Browning

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of being and ideal grace.
I love thee to the level of every day's
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for right.
I love thee purely, as they turn from praise.
I love thee with the passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints. I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life; and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.

- See more at: http://www.poets.org/viewmedia.php/prmMID/15384#sthash.N6FFOHFx.dpuf

April 13th Oprah Magazine

April 13th Oprah Magazine

I love this part of the article I read today gives me so much to think about and hope to forgive certain things in my life and people.

I know you often say that love liberates us, but actually, forgiveness does
-Oprah

But you cant forgive without loving. And I don't mean sentimentality. I don't mean mush. I mean having enough courage to stand up and say "I forgive. I am finished with it"
-Maya Angelou

It doesn't necessarily mean you want to invite them to your table.
-Oprah

Indeed not. No, no, no. I don't even want you around me. It just means I'm finished with you.
-Maya Angelou

 I read this part over and over several times today thinking about sadness or holding onto anger that has happened in my life and parts of other peoples lives I know. Sometimes I feel like I can say Yes I can forgive Not forget but Yes forgive and other times I feel like Hell No you do not get my forgiveness, I also wonder what it would be like to forgive and just Let it go. To say yes I forgive you, I am done with you and my life goes on.

Yesterday I went to Casens school to go over some items for Casens re-evaluation on his Autism diagnosis.  Took the kids to the store for some grocery items and a few extras (stuff to make a cake on Sunday) In this process I  managed to drop a $20 dollar bill somewhere. Took the bag of dog food out from the bottom of my cart for it to rip and go all over the floor in the check out lane, I get home the container of car litter falls out the lid is not on all the way and cat litter goes everywhere in the drive way, by this time I am ready for bed (its only 4pm) Glad the rest of the night went well except for the fact that I feel like I am losing more and more sleep each night. I just don't sleep good anymore. I can not take an ambien when Vince is not here for fear I will not hear my kids if they need me or that I will do something I do not need to be doing,sleeping walking or running around outside without makeup or a bra on LOL

 I have been taking Synthroid for a few weeks now, there are a few changes but not what I thought it would be. A few more weeks and I will talk to my doctor about putting me on actual Synthroid not generic or uping my dose. Or maybe even a different medication.

Vince left yesterday for a long weekend of Camping...oh excuse me gold panning with some buddies of his. Today I worked half a day. Got home had some quiet time alone while the kids had their quiet time as I call it now instead of nap time. We watched some Tom & Jerry, ate dinner, had a low key evening. I was bummed it got so cold today and rained since the weather said otherwise I was kind of looking forward to spending a little time soaking up some well needed Vitamin D. Utah weather you never know what the day will be like in April. 

I also must say I like this blogging thing kinda feels like writing in a journal.

Funny

Funny...just realized that on april 9th my post was im happy and blessed.etc.... today I am sad. I must be close to my period..yep sure am PMS city baby plus being a woman I am entitled to my mood swings right. GeeZ I need some sleep night all

April 11

April 11 2013
  I have felt a little off and sad these past few days.Jace started not feeling well last night when he woke up this morning he had a full blown cough with congestion. No preschool for him today which also meant no lunch date with my friends and no Roosters to eat and I didnt get anything done today except go to work. Casen is doing well no signs of being sick....yet. Vince is leaving for 4 days tomorrow., now what I am going to do with myself without my husband picking on me and cracking jokes I guess it will make for a long weekend but I also enjoy the break.
Tomorrow I am meeting with a lady who is retesting Casen for Autism which pisses me off to no end since the piece of shit Grammercy Elem school (in ogden school district) he went to at first "lost" a paper from his records. Ok first of all he started with NUAP the northern utah autism preschool and was clinically diagnosed with Autism there. His current teacher who we love...currently states Yes he is autistic. I FLAT OUT REFUSE to let them change his diagnosis. Maybe I am just getting upset over nothing and this is just a formality.
Today is my brother Skip's birthday (who I never talk to which makes me want to cry) Hope he had a good day!!! I do miss him terribly. Unless you know what it is like to have No family around you will never know the heartache and pain this puts me through on a regular basis. (If you do I totally feel your pain) Maybe that is why I feel so sad. I have so many family members who I love so much and miss with all my heart.

April 9th 2013

So today I took Jace to preschool ran a few errands, picked up Jace, grabbed pizza and headed to Sofi's for a playdate with her boys. Jace and Conner always have a blast and Aidan was mesmerized by Jaces dog toy slide which I think Mom was glad it left with us, the toy is a little annoying. Time always passes too fast when we get together before I know it time to leave had come, I had to get ready for work.

Get to work and see an email that one of my awesome coworkers got a job promotion as our team lead  (changes had come with the company I work for) I am pleased for her and me since I think she will do a great job and a bonus I really like her and we get along well. I Just wish I could work with her more often. Work was not too crazy busy and I welcomed the break and was able to catch up on a few things and was able to catch up with coworkers which seems so rare these days.

Tomorrow and Thursday I have lunch dates with friends and coworkers/friends along with many other items on my list to accomplish. With all the "things" going on in life right now I am happy and feel blessed to have good friends (near and far), my husband, my kids, family and a job I actually like in my life!!

Good Night

There have been so many times over the past few years I have thought of becoming a writer not sure if it is to write a novel,  write about my life and my kids, short stories, share things I love or hell to just express my opinion . After reading a few friends blogs I thought I really need to try this again. Feel free to leave a comment, to let me know if I suck at this or if I actually make you laugh or cry or even piss you off. I figured this would be a better place to voice my thoughts or show items I think are funny then write or post them on facebook. So excuse me if I use language you do not agree with or I say things that offend you....I guess I will see where this goes


Trisha